Busy week, Busy month

We always knew May was busy, last year it got busier, by us adding one more birthday to it. This year it is even busier due to going to the doctor.

Yesterday I had clinic. So I went to the hospital and got checked over. Everything looks good except my kidneys don't like how much I am throwing up. So I have to go back on Thursday for an extra bag of fluid to last me until Monday when I see the doctor again. Today we are going to the hospital to see the neurologist. It is just a consultation- so not sure what we will be doing. But we will meet with the doctor who will say if and when I can stop taking my needles and my seizure medication. Wednesday may be a quiet day- but Brett has some shopping to do. Then Thursday we will be back at the hospital. Friday- well we will have our own personal family party for Brycie for his first birthday. We have a birthday party on Saturday, and Mothers Day on Sunday- so Bryce's birthday got moved to the 15th- he has to have cake on his actual birthday so I think I will get Brett to grab some cupcakes for us! I am excited, but not- I missed so much of his first year, and I think that is what is really getting to me.

This is my little vent. I feel robbed, I feel- well I know, that because of this leukemia I had some of my life ripped away from me. I missed out on some of my kids lives. I know I missed out on some of my own too- but my kids change daily. While Danika doesn't change too much, she was changing in that time. But I feel completely robbed of Bryce's first year. I was in pain since he was born, then had my gall bladder out and wasn't in pain for 2 weeks- but couldn't lift him because of the surgery. Then all the leukemia stuff happened- and I still can't lift him! I think that along with him being in the NICU for the first 17 days of his life- I just feel like I missed so much- I didn't get to hold him until he was a week old. I just want this year back to spend with my little boy, my last baby! I guess I have to look at the positive- both of us are good, and will have many years to spend together, and many years to talk about his crazy first year on this crazy planet! Things could have been way different for either of us- so maybe not being as close as I would have liked this first year- we will be closer than ever forever!

Okay- vent over!

I said busy month- well this is where I would like to acknowledge everyone who will make our month busy.
Happy Birthday to Bretts Brother Garrett
Happy Birthday to my Grandpa
Happy Birthday to my Dad
Happy Anniversary to my Dad and Sharon
Happy Birthday Sharon
Happy Birthday to Bretts Dad too!

And also to all our friends and extended family that have birthdays in May- if I listed everyone I would run out of space- I think we know someone every day or so!

And Happy Mothers Day to my Mom, Sharon and Bretts mom- thank you all for helping us this past year- you all mean so much to us! And also to all the wonderful moms out there- all the moms I know are AMAZING!