Weight, weight, go away- don't come back another day!

My weight ALWAYS fluctuates. And I have been pretty good, put on a few, take them off etc. BUT, since I got married- yes 6 + years ago, I have just put on! Trying to get pregnant was stressful- I am a stress/boredom eater. Then when I got pregnant with Danika I was ALWAYS hungry- and for ice cream, and chips. If I wasn't sending Brett to DQ for a blizzard, I was sending him to the store for baked lays! So, I hate to admit, but I have to- I gained OVER 100 pounds with her- yep in 9 months! I was slowly losing it with I got pregnant with Bryce, I was probably in the 180's somewhere. Then, pregnancy got me again- the day I went in to have Bryce I was 252- no kidding! (he was only 7lbs, 7 oz). I tried to get it off, but with 2 kids under 2, and also gall bladder issues, it just wasn't going anywhere.

A few days before I got sick (well before I went into the hospital), I weighed myself, I was 205. While I don't like that I had leukemia, it caused a big life change for me. I can happily say that I am in remission- and well you all know that story. But, as for the life change. While I was sick- I lost a ton of weight. And for an average patient, the weight loss is something to worry about, because you can loss too much weight. But, since I was so over weight when I went in, the doctors weren't too worried with where I was, as long as it didn't start coming off too fast. They knew that I still had baby weight, and that I was "obese" for my age, and height.

 So, after fighting for my life, and getting my life back. I vowed to be healthier. As I sat in that hospital bed, I watched shows on cooking healthier, and being healthier. I read magazines with healthy living articles etc. Things were going good. Although, I had to change how I did many things, and that was hard. I had to get energy back, gain some muscles etc. It was tough. I was at an okay weight for my body. And I think, I got lazy again. I knew that I was good, so I sat back. We have been eating healthy, I cook more meals, follow new healthier recipes (I love Sparkrecipes). But, I was back into the snacking! And I got lazy with exercising. I had to exercise when I got out of the hospital, because I could barely walk. I had no muscles. So, we bought a wii. I did it as much as I could handle, almost every day. But, then life got busy, as it always does, and I got lazy.

Well, a couple weeks ago, I tried to put on a pair of pants that I bought last winter. They were a size 8, I have NEVER been an 8, so I was so proud to wear these jeans. Although they were nothing special, I loved them! Anyways- I tried to put them on, and couldn't even get the button to get close to the other part of it! Even if I laid on the bed, sucked in my tummy as much as I could- NOTHING! It hit me- I had gotten lazy again! I hadn't even stepped on the scale since probably May! So, I pulled it out. I was 153.5 pounds. Last I checked I was 147! I was in shock- I probably shouldn't have been, but still! I was also mad at myself. Why- well, I have been fighting with my weight for 6 years. I know how hard it is for me to lose that much. And- not saying this in any offensive way, but when I was sick, I did get something positive out of it- I lost all that weight. I really didn't want to go back up! I had help (so to speak) with going down in weight, and I did not want it to come back. And I know, part of staying in remission is leading a healthy life. I do not want to go through that again. I do not want to be sick, I want a healthy life! So, yeah, I was mad!

Immediately, I went out, bought an iPod shuffle, some runners and figured out a plan of action for myself, and my weight battle! I also dusted off the Wii, and got to it. I have been eating smaller meals. And, I have stopped the meaningless snacking, and gotten my healthy life back.

Since August 1, I am proud to say that I have lost 3 pounds. I am now at 150.5. This morning, I joined some other mommies on the message board I have been apart of for 5 years- mommies that also had babies in July 2007. It is on babycenter and they have helped me through many things in the last 5 years. Today, we started a competition for weight loss. And, we all get to say what we would like to lose, the competition will go from now until December 3rd. I have set my goal at 10.5 pounds. I want to be an even 140 for Christmas.

I thought, along with posting there, I will also post here, making myself accountable in more than one place. I know I don't have anything to prove to anyone but myself. But it just makes me feel like there are more people involved, more people who know. More people to slap my hand when I screw up, or to give me a pat on the back when I succeed!

So, here is my plan. I plan to do 30-45 minutes on the wii (fit) each night, plus 4 times a week, I will do one workout off the spark people dvds. And when I can, I will be getting out for a walk. I plan to watch what I eat, and not have any late night snacks. Right now, as of today, I am 150.5. I am hoping to lose 3.5 pounds per month. So, here is my start picture. I will post another one on October 2, November 2, and December 2! Hopefully you will see the scale saying 140 by the December 2nd picture! If anyone has any tips, tricks or recipes, feel free to PLEASE email them to me, or leave a comment here! Thanks so much for all of your help and support (now and through the years!)