3 years ago

3 years ago tonight, right now, I was stuffing my face, getting ready for bed, knowing that I couldn't eat or drink when I got up. I was trying to eat enough to keep me full, until I could eat again. I knew I had to eat something even though my stomach had so many butterflies in it. I knew tomorrow my life would change.

I knew, many moms don't. But after almost 10 months of some ups and downs in pregnancy, I knew my little girl was coming the next day. I knew that at that point the next night, I would no longer just be Brianne Hendricks, or Hanson, or Mrs. Hendricks- I would be mommy.

As I sit here tonight, and think about what we were doing 3 years ago tonight, even 1 and 2 years ago, I think about how my life has changed. How many things have happened, all in that little time frame, from when I went from me, a women, a wife, to a mother.

Since we became a family 3 years ago we have done many things, some were wonderful and some scared us silly. We did all of our firsts- not with just Danika, but Bryce too. We went to disneyland. We travelled many times to BC. We lived in 3 different houses. We enjoyed all of the time we had as a family of 3, and spoilt Danika crazy. And then we added to our family, and became complete. With the addition of Bryce we thought we were living the dream- and were. We had our family, our lives, plus some of those things you can buy. Then, something hit that scared us silly, my leukemia.

We are a family, and I am so happy that I am still here to celebrate with my family. We are all here for each other- no matter what the age. Bryce and Danika are always here for a good "cheer me up".

My life changed 3 years ago, when I became mommy. All though, she could not say it for many months, I still knew- each time those big blue eyes looked up at me, she knew, I was hers- forever. Now, she says it- ALL DAY! Some days, I just want 5 minutes to myself- but then I think of what she has been through in 3 short years, and I know why she wants me, and why she says "mommy" so many times a day.

3 years ago right now, I had no idea how drastically my life was about to change. I just couldn't wait to meet my little girl. I just couldn't wait to be a mommy. I must say- I have always dreamed of being a mommy- I am sure since I knew what that meant- and it is the best thing to happen in my life (sorry Brett- our wedding was nice too). Now- although I want her to slow down (and Bryce too)- I enjoy seeing each new development, and feeling myself wonder where she got it from, or be proud, because I know I taught her something.

3 years ago right now, I wasn't mommy- but 3 years ago tomorrow, I became mommy- and for that I am forever thankful!