6 weeks ago...

6 weeks ago right now (12:37pm) I was sitting in the waiting room at the foothills wondering how long they were going to be. I was starving and getting inpatient. I finally talked Brett into going in to see if I could get a bed- since I hadn't eaten in 14 hours. I got my bed- and all is history.

I can't believe at 4:16 this afternoon Danika will be 6 weeks old. On one hand it feels like she just got her, and it is hard to believe that she is 6 weeks old- there are still many things we need to figure out with her (I am sure this will be a life long learning adventure!), and there are things everyday that surprise us- with what we know! On the other hand- it is like she has been here forever. It is like our family was always complete- it is hard to remember life without her.

I remember listening to those older than me (parents, grandparent, aunts, uncles- etc.) talking about things they did in their younger days (no offense). It was hard for me to believe that they were once my age, younger than what I am, and even infants! But now I know- there will be a time when Danika is thinking like that- basically there wasn't really life before her. And then one day she will realize that there was.

You grow up thinking you will not be like your parents, well not even thinking- but hoping and praying! But even if you don't turn out like your parents within the parenting skills- you still turn out like your parents- because you turn into a parent!

My mom was telling me while she was here helping us with Danika, that when I was born she couldn't wait to do all these things with me that she liked to do. They took me places when I was little in hopes that I would love them when I got bigger- like they did. But then I got bigger- and when we did certain things- I didn't like them as much as she thought I would. Brett and I have some favorite things- the zoo, fish, traveling to mention some- and I now know how my mom felt when I didn't like something- I would be devastated if Danika didn't like these things- but of course- she is her own person and that is so special to us- more than any place or thing!

She is her own person- everyone has their opinion on who she looks like- I have to side with my second (or is he a third) cousin Travis. His mom is my moms cousin- while they were all looking at pictures of Danika they were picking out things that she got from me, or Brett- when he said something along the lines of "She looks like Danika!" And she does. I know she got some things from us- but honestly I don't see either of us- I see Danika!!!! I guess thats another thing that goes back to the 3rd paragraph- I wasn't there to see Brett and I as Babies- well I was- but don't remember. I have seen pictures- but now that I see my baby- she is her, not me, not brett! It is nice when people tell me they see both of us in her though- because that is true!

Well Happy 6 weeks Baby Girl- your mommy and daddy love you so much!

(Oh and for a 6 week present- Danika is getting her own room. I have decided I am strong- or will pretend- and Danika is going to sleep in her bed tonight! Wish me luck!)